... ITS JUST TO BE,
AND TO LIVE POSITIVE, AND ... YET THAT CAN BE DIFFICULT ♥ SO LOVING YOUR LIFE NO
MATTER WHAT. FOR LIFE, IS SO MUCH MORE, THAN WE
NOW; KNOW. Life; is for living and
knowing; who you/I/we truly are. LIFE
IS GREAT ♥ BE IN
AND DO LIVE IT I
WOULD LIKE, TO SAY TO YOU; LIVE YOUR LIFE FULLY, LIVE IT WELL AND JUST APPRECIATE ALL THAT
YOU HAVE, FOR,
YOUR LIFE TOO, CAN SUDDENLYBECOME,
SO VERY DIFFERENT. ... PLEASE HELP ME ... GIVE THESE HELPING HANDS, TO
OTHERS BY SPREADING THIS KNOWLEDGE as many people, encounters
changes in life.
If IT becomes 'turned
upside down' or 'inside out' suddenly
fears raise its heads
in so many
situations & in all our lives
just, like this;
my own anaphylaxis,
did for me,
...yet; fear is fear:... ...but only; if we let it;
take hold... ♥ inside us ♥ ...then, it turns around to
panic... ...and that can come through
everything... ◊ when we start to react
◊ ...for that; not to happen;
thinker-re'think or start to pray AT LEAST; BREATHE;
so just stop, and feel your breath if feeling; 'panicy' breathe
be aware, of your own breath it will help you stay calm if you've a panic attack so you are
aware; of yourself know how your
body reacts, in all details as we must learn, what it
is, and what we can do. yet be aware of anaphylaxis
shock and know; your own; allergy
reactions knowanyanaphyaxis;isdifferent anaphylaxis can mean
Death in minutes we must use our rescue
medication if it is a beginning
Anaphylaxis you will need instant help FOR Is an anaphylaxis different;
from any other 'disease ? ...YES, IT IS... Anaphylaxis is a defense,
of/in almost all the species; living on Earth; its a brilliant and an
incredible protection; of LIFE. Its a defense from cells,
not to become altered or sick. Its a defense of/for; the
survival of the species. THE BODY IS GOING INTO;
SHOCK. it needs; a rescue
medication fast. OTHER'WISE IT CAN BE THE
DEATH. IT CAN BECOME AN EMERGENCY;
SO FAST ( our bodies, can go into
many kinds; of shock ) ITS A BUILD'IN PROTECTION;
IN OUR DNA yet can trigger, even
freeze, our bodies for it is going into full
fear/fight for our survival, it is quickly or slowly
closing our bodies/organs down, trying to have you survive,
it is an important part of this our human or animal
genome too. IT JUST SHOW HOW RESILIENT WE
ALL ARE IT HAS BEEN;
WITH US, A LONG TIME, TOO IT HARDLY
CHANGED A THOUSAND YEARS IT HAS NOW,
GONE OUT OF OUR CONTROL IT NEEDS TO BE
CALMED DOWN, IN US ALL as it react; against
the perils; of
adulteration. it was made to help
us all to
Its written into
It's the story of
so listen and
see, see it, in
it has been; written
see it through-out
all the shadows
it is coded and ready
to protect our
please; do not
be afraid, now learn to live with it all not; in panic or fear ...
be wise and ... 'instead see how fine'tuned
it all truly is' do not become
afraid; become aware and care
'this is the big warning
sign for everyone' YES DO KNOW its a danger for us it comes as a lightning in our lives as
over'protecting yes, its known; its very
'OLD' news 'This is also why; I write
this for you, now' do not live; by default but
by inner will & power. Do not become fearful, be
informed to protect all life ( A part; taken from;
Lectures; Physiology or Medicine, 1901-1921)
By: Charles Richet;
Yes, it is a long
time ago, yet that
is exactly, what has happened here too.
CAN ALSO FIND
THE FULL LECTURE, ON 'MY LINK PAGE' *
I'll quote here in
'We are so
that we can never recieve other proteins into the blood than
has been modified by digestivejuices Every time an alien or changed
and becomes resistant, this
lies in an increased sensitivity, like a sort of revolt, against the
would be fatal. At this second injection, this organism
its defense and answers by the anaphylaxis shock ridding it of the
by a sacrifice of one single organisme;
or LIFE, for the benefit of
the many's survival? )
a virus operate
different in our
It clearly stats
coming through; skin, lungs or mucus membranes is
at risk, by our body
anaphylaxis, a huge fight back; will start up' in us.
It is also precisely,
in these areas
our allergies starts up where cells' re'act from.
What kind of altered
can/do penetrate your body from these your own
So many cells are
involved in this,
its not simple at all. Its like a maze inside us.
Every organ; has
its job and cells
are sometimes answering, to many voices' too.
Again, please do
frightened, do know facts proper, and stand up for
yourself, do not
take everything as
face-value, and do not believe; in everything.
KNOW WHAT IS IN YOU
AND AROUND YOU
Now think of all
these new materials
we have around us (that is not eatable too)
All our tissues that
contact with 'the outer world' has these protective
cells, readytoprotectus, immediately.
This is why I say
everyone is at
risk, and not only by using latex, its all proteins
as these are blended
forms of chemicals too; just like latex gloves.
Protection in us
breaks down get
spoiled and things starts to go horrible wrong
we can react as a
When outer chemicals do release the reaction.
body chemicals throughout/into all our tissues.
Some reactions goes
attacking our own cells, others overprotect them.
Why ? do we not ever
stop up, and
truly see what it is, we do; to our own bodies.
ITS ABOUT; THE TOO
LITTLE IS NOT
ENOUGH; AND TOO MUCH WILL SPILL OVER.
( surely, we do not
have to keep
acting like this, in our lives)
We just have to open
our eyes and
see, listen to the nature and speak our truth.
do we know?
If all new;
or man'made molecules
in any 'New'
arriving onto our
proper tested & no warnings; that it has not been.
What can/will be
modified by; our
What about all of
these new kinds of
materials we use?
WHAT IS AROUND US
ALL ? WHAT DO WE
NEED, TO CHANGE ?
WHY IS ALL ALLERGIES;
AHEAD; LIKE NEVER BEFORE ?
(there are still
so many why's)
All of this seems
to have been
forgotten; by all these sciences we have on Earth
I do appeal; to all
scientists, to please; re-view what it is; you all now do.
Which of these new
proteins, or even chemicals, is not being; modified
by our digestive
juices, what has
changed; our world so much around lately too?
This was written,
before we changed;
'every molecule' around & throughout it all,
by refraction, penetration;
skin or other means; into a body: It; do learn.
So what do not 'kill
off ' or
diminish our immune system, make it much stronger
yet it makes it so
strong, that it
is ready to kill us too, so no more harm is done.
Here I'm not saying
we start to eat
everything either, to try and become immune.
Let that be something
scientists find a mechanism to sort out for all.
SO, WHAT HAVE WE
IS; A TRUE
WHAT IS; A EFFRACTION
WHAT IS; CHANGING
WHAT IS; A PROTECTION?
WHAT IS; IN'RICHMENT?
WHAT IS; SO HEALTHY?
WHAT IS IT TO LEARN?
WHAT IS; DANGEROUS?
WHAT IS; AN ADDITIVE?
WHAT IS; A MISLEADING?
WHAT IS; THE TRUE
WHAT IS; CHANGING
WHAT IS; THIS GM
WHAT IS; AN ADULTERATION,
IS IT ALL, TURNED
IN-SIDE AND OUT?
Do we know what we are doing
at all? FOR other'wise; we are all being
caught, mis'treated as the other side of all this;
is our weakened immune system. (and they are both as bad as
each other to live with; they make us sick) Just, like all our lives
become, when turned; up-side down. ...or Protecting us by:
IGA,IGE,IGG,IGM, T'cells...all Defending us... TH'1 < > ∞
TH'2 -and-in-side-too-then-to-out- ...they're like a chain of
cells, and they do start; a chain'reaction... AS
A HEALTHY DNA IN
EVERY CELL, IS A MUST
TO PROTECT US (not defend us) FROM HARM YET SOMETIMES THEY'LL GET
RUSTY INSTEAD THEN THEY CAN BREAK DOWN AS THEY; DEFEND US (for we have defenses, defenses everywhere trying to; defend
can make us extremely sick. Its our always; alert Immune
system. I Am sure that it is from
these reactions, a healing come that is able; to cure all
our diseases from a fine balance and a
knowing of how it all do work. CELLS REACT FROM learning, still learning;
from everything. INSIDE AND OUT from all the things the body
must fight. TO KEEP US ALL ALIVE All is so much more and so
alive in all. YET, IT IS
A LIFE, AND
I WILL LIVE
IT: TO THE
BEST OF MY
ABILITY. DRESSED, TO THE BARE BONES
OF THINGS, I STOOD FIRM AND STILL. AsI truly had to learn; to survive,
it all. SO NOW ...AFTER KNOWING ALL OF
THIS... YOU'RE WELCOME WELCOME TO
MY STORY NO; I DO NOT
WALK LIKE THIS ALONE OTHER, THAN IN MY MIND, TO
SET MY SELF FREE PLEASE
WELCOME YOU yet do
MY LIFE CAN
ONLY BE ENTERED
♥ BYTHE GREATEST
loose or release, all
my 'defenses' to
stay, in my life ...as I now, do live very very
protected to stay alive, therefore my life...
Is now very quit, yet I Am at peace with this; new life form, I do
not blame I do not provoke any
new reaction of anaphylaxis either, which does not mean I will not
get them anymore.(For we all
know that accidents do happen.) I wake up happy, that I have been
granted another day to be
the best that I can be, for The People I Love or Know. I also try
to bring this out to as many as I
can, so they hopefully do not end up this same place. So they can
live and continue live and do
all the things they NOW take for granted. Just as I did, before all
of this started. I Lived my Life,
I, was strong and healthy. I was lively. I was busy. I was very,
very happy; for I had the best life,
happy go lucky smiling to all and enjoying the greatness of My
Life, as it truly was; and it still is;
My Precious Life
Letting all my defenses go is truly the hardest thing
to release all fear and stand unprotected yet knowing; I was
Its still a beautiful yet simple life.
I wish for it, to continue to be; My Great Life
I still feel, I have something to offer. I love my family, my
I have found inner peace; and a new wealth
and I still enjoy being who I am.
Yet, our life changes all the time, it can come from the outside of
us, or from our inside.
When I decided to make this site, I had to search my soul; why it
was my wish, what it was; I so
wanted to give out. My reason is/was; that it must be of value, it
must benefit someone, it must
show the goodness in a life and in all, and it must be very honest
and lovingly told to be of use.
Trying to see all things in the small and in the big picture; of 1
self and of every'thing around us
As we all contain; a diff. range of; so many coping mechanisms,
there will always; be some for
for you too. I discovered I used a wide array; in ways of coping
with my 'New Life' depending of
what I had to cope with or if I had earlier experiences in my life
that could help me to cope now
Coping mechanisms spring from upbringing & from our genes even
from our sum of experience
Things changes through love, through children, through health and
through, what others may be
doing to us in life, consciously or unconsciously. Things can
change in a second for anyone of us
So we are always in a defense position, we have replaced:
'protected and safe' with a defense.
Please when you read about me do remember; I ended up with the most
serious kind of allergy
Whatever serious dis-ease we may encounter on our way, it is there
for us to learn to cope with.
It doesn't mean; we should hide our'selves, our feelings, or our
lives away, or not cry or be sad.
We are allowed to turn to each other for help and support to we can
walk with a joy in life again
Dangers or sorrow comes in many disguises in a thousand forms, we
can better cope; knowing.
For that means; we don't walk across roads blind'folded and with
earmuffs on & killed. We have
all learned through life to watch out for dangers, yet; that can
only be done when we are told or
if we learn it directly or the hard way. I didn't know about Latex
Allergies, and I was not warned.
I knew and I had seen another of my fellow workers with the
chemical allergy but my hands had
nothing seriously first
just an itch (its an allergy)
some cough, and sneeze, too
I didn't know about latex powder,
covering; every thing; in & around me.
It was corn powder; Food 'but was changed' .
(please, do read about powders; on my page re. all
It was all black & white. Use gloves; or else.
I was also told; I would be fired, not using them.
Yes, I knew a danger; ofnot
using gloves in my work.
No, I wasn't tested or looked after while; I was wearing them.
From very simple none imp. symptoms I suddenly had anaphylaxis.
I didn't have other allergies than a pinicillin and a sulfa'
these, where very easy to cope with and to avoid in my life too.
Yet had never been life threatening, just as very severe rashes.
At my work; it seemed irrelevant; to ask us about any allergies.
That, as I have discovered later was another big mistake done.
For No warnings, No Knowledge = No Choice either for anyone.
A defends wards off; protection holds safe.
I was being; defended; by latex, notprotected.
Now I will light the shadow roads; to reveal surprises to you.
Then you do not have to live without; all your own possibilities in
You, can choose to know, you can choose to close your eyes and ears
best to stay protected and safe, withoutabigdefense.
Without any fears, for you then Know what to look out for & can
look around you; proper.
...So, now there is no need; to play dice; with your life...
as our industries grows continually, other problems will later come
to the surface and with other
results, and from new; "things" in our daily lives, therefore we
must develop a new form of inner
awareness in our bodies so we can live in safety in an environment.
Its very, very important and
we must help each other. We can not pack each other; in cotton wool
neither should we. We can
however treat life with respect, and each other on this earth, as
we would like to be treated too.
...just live and let live, be the one you seek in another...
...try live in joy, a fearless life; treasure what you have...
Yet, that can only be done; in an environment of trust & for
thousands of years, we have learned
not to trust anyone or anything around us, mistrust has been
sneaking into all our lives by these
ways we treat each other all the time. We are the ones who have
birthed all of this, we are these
ones, ourselves who causes each others fears, we are the ones who
can change it all back again
if we can go through the pains and the darkness of all this
mistrust into a world based; on trust.
...trust that; what you receive in your life is yours to live...
...live it fearlessly; live it with a vigor & great
Please again, remember when we see; a fear straight in the eye just
by naming it, we recognize
we do not own it, knowing fear is truly nothing to fear; but that
it is an armor of all our own past
experiences. So before; we venture further in my story, you will
have to understand; all of these
feelings, as that was something I too, have had to deal with,
living through this; in my life. When
we know exactly, what fear is and how fear behave we can use its
power to en'power ourselves.
...be bold; yet kind, be forward thinking, yet; all loving...
...find your own inner power; become an earth pioneer...
For truly; the biggest thing that can happen in our lives, is when
we can transfer our fears into a
new inner power, of pure new raw energy; to create; a new form for
life. That comes; automatic
when we see fear; and stand up to our fears, when we go through our
fears as if we where in a
huge fight; with a Lion or a Tiger, we have conquered our worst
enemy, and we have won a new
place in a brand new and fearless world; where we know we can pull
down our defenses its OK.
...so we all together; can recreate that; which freezes us...
...being aware of that which make us so hot; that we fight...
and now being proven too, we are spoiling our own environment and this
Beautiful Earth of ours, big time. We are in for; a very tough
ride, a ride; that is going to be very
bumpy, and we will be doing it together, this time around. Then we
must now, stand very firmly
together either we want to or not, as mother nature decide that
enough is enough and shake us.
Our world is filled our hospitals are filled our bodies are filled
and all our days, are filled all up.
...just see the world we together, are producing none stop...
our disregard and discord with our natural world, has now dead'ned
us all so much, we give up
People all over this world, live in horrible conditions with hunger
and without a roof and no help.
It is all running over spilling out to be taken into account to be
seen and to be fixed by all of us.
Pollution levels increase so fast, yet we see it not, as we run
after lost time, lost lives to sickness
and death do us apart, for all do now increase further, as our own
hungers for more and better
things increase so fast. We still see it not; before we ourselves
is almost left for dead, in all this.
looking truly on this world, without rose colored glasses, in this
21 AD we are, we should be; so
ashamed. We do not care at all, for any living thing; be it
soil,air,water,plant,animals or humans.
We can no longer ask "Why me"? for it truly is; why not me! In this
spoiled world of ours, we have
created this, so fast, that not many of us truly has had time, to
see it before; it is dumped on us
we all know it deep inside, yet before it hit home to us, we do not
re'act. That's inclusive myself.
Now it is only with a togetherness with positive & loving
thoughts and actions, we all can survive.
This you will understand completely by reading my pages about the
hidden things we are doing
BUT, IT IS OUR INDIVIDUAL CHOICE
ALL IS BACK TO FRONT
WE OFTEN HATE WITHOUT THINKING DEEPER OVER
IF WE THINK IT THROUGH; WE CAN SEE IT IS ONLY
FEARS SPOIL SO MANY THINGS, IN OUR LIVES AND
WE DESTROY A HEALTH WITHOUT A CARE THAT ISN'T
A HEALTH CARE.
WE DESTROY THE JUSTICE BY LOOKING AT IT AS
JUST A GAME TO PLAY,
WE DESTROY THEN A GREAT WEALTH FOR ALL, JUST
TO SAY; 'WE WON'
WE DESTROY OUR WISDOM, BY THINKING; IT IS
JUST OUR; KNOWLEDGE.
WE DESTROY TRUTHS BY MANIPULATING OUR TRUTH
TO FIT INTO LIFE.
WE DESTROY PEACE; FOR ALL BY THE WARS WE
WE DESTROY OUR FREEDOM 'BY LETTING A
DEFAULT'; INTO OUR LIVES.
WE DESTROY LOVE BY NOT HAVING KINDNESS AND
WE DESTROY MANY LIVES, BY NOT CARING OR
SHARING; A TRUE LOVE.
WE DESTROY EARTH; BY NOT RESPECTING EVERY
& ALL LIVING THING'.
IF WE CAN JUST RELAX A LITTLE, WE KNOW NOT A
HATE FOSTERS FEAR. ONLY LOVE AND CARE
TO TRULY LIVE TOGETHER; IN PEACE & LOVE
THEN WE HAVE, TURNED
IT ALL AROUND
FOR ALWAYS WE EACH; HAVE A CHOICE
YOUR LOVING HEART
It does not matter who we are or where we live. It does matter, how
we live the life we have got.
I am still better of, than so many other people in this world. Yet
by reading this my story from a
western view no one would think it so. I have warm, I have Love and
I can drink the water and a
few more things can I do, have a bit of food. Yes I do Live even
its a far cry from my former life.
This, is something now for us all, to be aware of as 'things' is
now really getting; into our bodies.
Please remember, I am only writing this, because it can be any ones
life, in this our world today.
I am not complaining, I'm only trying to explain; this new form of
dis-ability that has now arrived
To tell you it's the way I can live, where I avoid risking my life,
in everything I do in a daily world.
There's different stages to this Latex Hypersensitivity for its
ever evolving; depending the doses,
and it shows up, after any serious attack; when you live in this so
highly sensitive state of health.
That is if you survive the anaphylaxis in the first place. Yet it
never stops there anymore, for me.
See our immune system is highly developed, its job IS; to protect
us from this harm; to our body
It is now at a point, where all my cells; keep being on this high
alert. It is now; 'Mastocytosis like'
where it do and will affect the whole of my body for a long time or
all the time, I will never know
Most times it affect; my lungs, heart, mouth, intestines, all these
immune cells nerves and brain,
with severe breathing & heartbeat problems hoarseness, sores,
pains, lumps, swellings & spots.
Confusion, blueness, severe headaches, nausea, diarrhoea, bladder
irritation; that slowly eases,
bone pains, muscle pains, cramps, and severe chest tightness, with
coughing, and lots of mucus
tiredness, lymph node swellings goes up & down they can even
completely disappear for awhile
all at this same time, yet not always in the same order or degree,
again it all depends, what it is
that has started this ravine in the first place. How long it takes
to get better only my body knows
This is all happening besides these Anaphylaxis I still get
Some symptoms belong together it is anaphylaxis too. Other comes in
through 'the back door later' and they last for days or even for
When I have pains, swellings, breathing difficulties I can be
be around, as I can't even have; painkillers, react to them too. I
bottle up and hide my pain, I got to have an outlet, for all this;
I am incredibly lucky; I have such an understanding family, they
me well and know; that as soon my pain disappear, I am back to my
old and positive self again until it all start once more from
Recovering times comes around again and again, now healing myself.
So I'm still living, behind this curtain; of life, hidden away from
Yet my life's flame is burning strong as I still has so much to do
All I do now; is in small drops, at anyone time, otherwise it upset
that balance within; I' Can Live.
My life has changed, I had to change internally and externally, I
had to find a new way to live life
with it all, from this damage I too have got from the negligent
behavior of this commercial world.
Where money and prestige is a reigning force of so many workplaces
without care, for a worker.
For You too, can reach this new stage if you body goes into a
sensitivity so high that it affects the
whole body. Most of the time you have great pains and so many
things starts to break down too
you never know what is around the next corner. This is where you
really feel you are so isolated
this is the point that is not understood. Only these people, who
live with you from day to day do.
For; in my heightened sensitivity; anything will/do affect my body,
to it is all calmed down, again
AS I HAVE TO LEAVE MY FORMER LIFE, AND YOUR WORLD BEHIND
on the very few days, where I can function, to the best of my
I have found many new ways to live and to be happy, many different
by; knowing my risk.
'And a can do attitude'
YET; IT IS REALLY HARD WORK
DAY AFTER DAY, KEEPING IN BALANCE
I have become aware, that it was only through my own ability; to
that I could survive mentally and psychological, to be so
restricted, in my life, as I am now.
Yet, I still believe in my Healing, I still believe I can do
something with inner help.
Setting my body into new Balance
... these few days have become my treasure times where...
I read, and I write, I talk on the phone, when I am able to. I'll
study on the internet, all that I can
and what ever subject I find interesting at any time. I have my
procedures with medications and
must follow a strict diet. I practice; yoga and tai-chi, whenever I
can, and I meditate too. I keep;
as Positive in my daily life, as I possible can. I sit in the
garden, there I listen or read as most of
my former love for gardening, now too is a distant memory, I listen
to great music, and I do also
watch documentary and some movies too. All of it ... in the safety,
of our own home. Yes my life
is now the form of tranquility that so many are seeking. I know I
am very lucky. Yes I Do Know It
I GIVE MY THANKS TO WHERE IT BELONGS
When I pray
...For I have quiet times in myself with the God Power in me...
This, inner Divine Power, always helps me to believe, that I will
For Miracles can/do happen and I DO believe strongly in the Power
...I know anything is possible if we set our goal with a Divine...
I am calmed no end
NOW I WANT TO GIVE MY HUSBAND A BIG THANK YOU
I Want to Thank My Husband he is just the best, he is always there
in support, in body, in spirit
and by his loving soul, nothing is too big a problem, nothing can't
get fixed or changed around.
He is the Love of my life, my best friend, and he do not just give
in to me; if I'm wrong, this has
given me so much support, at the times where I could not see right
from wrong, in this new life.
He has given up; so much, of his former life too, to support me, to
be with me be there for me
I hold him so dear, I hold him so near, I hold him deep in my soul
for all he has and do for me.
OUR LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN PRECIOUS AND FULL OF CARE.
I DO LOVE HIM SO MUCH
HE IS THE LOVE AND THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE
as I am always shown great blessings in life from everywhere
Our Son, with his happy smiles his caring and uplifting words, has
carried me on wings through
the worst of times, he is always there with hugs and a willingness
to step in and help if needed
always there with loving hands of support, with comfort a great
chat willing ears to all my pains
yet, giving up so much; of what was in our lives together; of
before, so we still; can be together
AS A LOVE AND CARE IS ALWAYS IN THE AIR
I am/we are always supported too by;
our family and friends, nabours reach out too.
My family is always there, never more than a thought or a phone
call away, to brighten any day
so many memories, so much to talk about, as life too, can be
difficult for everyone everywhere.
Our Friends they had a rough time; to understand they can't just
come around, yet phone calls
is always there between us; to support and to spirit'up whenever
the blackness take overhand.
SEE THEIR SUPPORT IS WORTH MORE THAN GOLD TO ME, THAT HAS TRULY
GIVEN ME GREAT
HOPES AND OFTEN IT DRIED ALL OF MY TEARS
AS THEY; WHERE WIPED AWAY
BY ALL THEIR LOVE
YET FOR NOW
STILL my warnings...do come...fast/faster and NOW
so many of my reactions are BAD/or SERIOUS triggers, and I do not
always now, when it is not
triggers/reactions from everywhere
Mast Cell in a calm state Mast Cell in an Eruption
making breathing so difficult, giving swellings and
pains among all other things
( squished and up against a wall again)
SO, I AM BACK; TO MY HEALING
LUCKY AS I NOW KNOW, OUR BODY CAN HEAL ALMOST ALL,
TIME DO TAKE CARE OF THE REST
IN STILLNESS, AND
SEE, OUR BODIES ARE TRULY; SO MIRACULOUS
'THEY' TRULY; HAVEALIFE OF THEIR OWN
'THEY WILL KNOW AND DO; 'SEE'; IT ALL
AS; 'THEY'; CAN SENSE 'THINGS 'TOO,
ALL OUR CELLS TALK NONE STOP
'nerve cells talking'
Transforming, reconnecting, evolving
with everything around them;
in service to us all.
( Like this magic circle here)
Never sleeping never standing still always trying their best to do
with what it is we give to them
So what are we feeding our bodies, our souls and how do we use our
own spirit to choose it all.
Drowning ourselves; in this sea of "New Things" around us that we
must have, that we can't live
without? No do not think for a minute that I haven't been there too
for I certainly have it was me
too, I was and I am no different to anyone else on this earth. Yet I
together with so many others
now in the world we've paid the price, with the damage it has
caused in my/our lives today too,
by our cancers, allergies sensitivities and many mental disorders
IMMUNE SYSTEMS ORGANS AND CELLS
( working so tireless, to make us healthy. They help
us all to stay alive, and so fine.)
Yet, sometimes it becomes the body's
cure; that kills us instead.
Every things goes awray when we can't trust people
to understand; how sensitive we are, we become very
we'll become so overprotective of ourselves and of
If we've had experiences of neglect, or of a can't
it is incredible difficult, to trust anyone,
literally with your life
especially when you know what is happening, and they
THAT DOES NOT HELP US AT ALL.
So to live with this is not as any other sickness or rather
dis-ease in life, for our limit or the turn
a point of death can be measured in seconds, minutes; at any given
time, just as a heart attack
yet not many of us; go around thinking of we can get a heart attack
in the next now, that is now
the way, we have to live to stay protected and to stay alive, we
must be aware of all that we do.
We'll never know; when we have been near something; our bodies
react to, we cant always; see
all that is affecting us, we have to live it; by a trial and error,
and try to survive it every time too.
How would you live; A LIFE like this, all the time?
...See its now my body; that's telling me, warning me, every
and I do listen, for I have learned the hard way, that my body
Having had very serious experiences, not knowing a cause, yet later
Everything in my life is now as I can do it my body will indicate
that by being without symptoms
then I will start doing some more, and again this awareness sit on
my shoulder for I don't know
where my limits are, I do not know the borderline before I have
stepped over it yet again; NOW
With swellings that can come anywhere, even inside my mouth,
creating tooth pains I would not
wish on anyone spots and and sores I cry in pain not able to get
painkillers I react; to them too.
Perfume, make up, beautiful soaps, hair colors and perms; has all
now gone; from my life, as a
woman that was very, very difficult to accept; and live with, as it
completely changed; who I was
and how I presented myself to this world. Yet when it's almost
killing you; you know you have to
let it go. Even, with a possible; death hanging over my head, for
not being able to breathe, and
with so many other symptoms, coming on none stop, I cried
and cried, for there was so many
goodbyes, I constantly had to say, when my life fell; like the
card'house around me, as so many
foods too left my life. This do change our lives around completely,
when our sensitivity, become
life threatening our days are being monitored to the slightest
detail and if new attacks shows its
head then that has to be incorporated too. This is no easy task for
anyone living with or around.
I, could not believe; how many things; started this ravine, " sat
me off like a bomb" health'wise.
I too know there is many, many other forms for severe sickness in
this our world terrible things
and disabilities, which so totally too; alter lives. Yes I do know
your pain, I do understand; it all.
Lives torn apart in war zone areas in this world famine and
earth-disasters too happens all the
time. I know we can not compare, yet we can care and we can show
compassion and give help.
I know their pain I live that pain too, and that is what help me,
as I see others difficulties to live
with and within and what's truly going on; everywhere on this Earth
of ours from these traumas.
Now it is easy to understand a disability that can be seen on our
bodies. Ourscan'tbeseen its still not accepted and no'one really understand it
either HOW dangerous IT IS. Yet It is still my/our so beautiful life
As I know a lot more and I'm able to also keep myself safer in my
WAS NOT ALWAYS;
Time has stood still in my life for years, as I had to learn an to
cope with this
FOR SEE WHEN I AM NOW LOOKING BACK THROUGH THE MIST OF THE LATEX
WHEN; ALL THIS; CAME INTO MY LIFE, I KNEW NOT; WHAT WAS AHEAD OF ME
I had no idea how this; would or could turn my/our life upside
down, how it was going; to bleed
into everything we did and enjoyed in life. I thought a little
medication was going to do wonders
so I just needed; to recuperate and then I could go straight back
to, where I left off. How wrong
I was, how naive we where, and how dangerous it was; that my
doctors' did not tell us anything
From that point it was one big rollercoaster, a ride where we all
where; clinging to 'my dear life'
After my first Latex anaphylaxis to these gloves I had to wear, had
given me the fright of my life
yet I understood nothing of what truly was going on, only that I
never wanted to experience that
again. Also here I was so wrong as it now came again and again, as I
was tested as I was going
about in my life as I was eating and as I was just living and doing
all the normal things I used to
I HAD TO LEARN SO FAST; I HAD TO RELY ON MY OWN SURVIVAL INSTINCTS.
NO ONE AROUND ME; 'UNDERSTOOD WHY I WENT INTO THESE ANAPHYLAXIS'.
Seemingly; 'by the drop of a hat', neither did I. I felt it, I
lived it I had to survive it too every time
for I truly fought for my life. I truly fought against a
negligence, of enormous proportions around
me. I was dismissed; as a malingerer 'one; that was out; to get
something'. No one understood
that 'IT' was truly what I had got, but not the way they understood
it to be, I had IT already & IT
was truly spoiling my life; (everything they too knew as a life)
what it meant to be living, in a life
When they finally realized what went wrong it was truly too late,
my body had turned the corner
where it now recognized everything that was alike and reacted
virulently, even when I/we didn't
know how it all was connected up. Again question; upon question had
to asked, had to be fully
researched and answered before any danger could be eliminated from
my/our life or surviving
THESE LIFE THREATENING ANAPHYLAXIS I HAD UNDER & AFTER MY
THEN LEFT US TO ALL THESE DANGERS THEY KNEW
ABOUT, AGAIN AND AGAIN
WITH; EPI PENS & TOLD TO JUST; USE IT YOURSELF
WITH; NO HELP FROM; THESE PEOPLE IN THE KNOW
AFTER TELLING; OF THE MISTAKE AND THE TRUTH
SEEING; A POSSIBLE NEGLIGENCE COURT CASE, SO
THEY KNEW WHAT TO WRITE
TO SET THEM SELVES FREE; OF A RESPONSIBILITY
A KNOWINGNESS, CAN BECOME GREAT WISDOM,
IT CAN BE MANIPULATION TOO
THEN GOING AROUND IN CIRCLES TO NOWHERE
IN FALSE RAPPORTS; TO PROTECT THEM SELVES
PROTECT THEIR OWN MISTAKES.
AS A WORKER IS REGARDED AS NOT IMPORTANT
THEN SENT US SAILING IN THE SEA OF SILENCE,
DECIPT AND LIES REGARDLESS
OF ANY DANGER JUST WASHED THEIR HANDS,
OF WHAT TRULY IS A DUTY & CARE? WHEN THINGS CAN'T BE RE-DONE
See, when money, or a possible compensation; comes into this
equation; we will not; be looked
after proper by the people in the know. If I had got sick; away
from work, if I had got any other
sickness, I would have; been looked after proper from the
beginning. They would not; have left
me to my own devises, the way they did. I was first treated by a
specialist and a director of this
same company as I worked. What had; and was happening, I later
discovered was Never being
written proper in my Journal, and who was trusted, more than
I...then?? Yes I was naive, yet see
I truly knew nothing of these dangers of powdered gloves. Weeks
before I had symptoms; while
at work yet I knew not what I was getting then. I knew not about
serious allergies as they where
not really, a part of my family history. I had seen hand reactions,
yet these so serious lung ones
I DID NOT CONNECT; TO MY OWN USE OF THESE; POWDERED LATEX GLOVES,
...I UNDERSTOOD NOT; WHY I SUDDENLY COULD NOT BREATHE, MY
Now I do not write this to complain, happened has happened, and I
too still has a life, a form of
life, that I now can live. I write this because I know many more
people have had many so similar
experience, and because other workplaces and industries, still use
these gloves. Yes, I know we
got to be careful not to get other contagious diseases, yet there
is many who still uses them who
do not need to. Why; is the powdered gloves still manufactured to
this day, when all knows they
are the most dangerous ones, to our health and well being. Why; has
they not yet been; banded
20 years; past the knowings, that it is this latex glove powders
that contain and spread all these
so devastating latex proteins everywhere; they are in use? Why can
that not just; be stopped???
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YET THERE IS NO RESPECT, NO CONCERN, NO REAL HELP TO ELIMINATE
I CAN HAVE MANY ATTACKS A DAY AND I HAVE DAYS; WHERE I HAVE NONE.
So many things affect me now, pollens, smoke and pollutions when I
venture outside, and even
getting stuck; in traffic or tunnels; smoke from fireplaces set me
off or build up on top of other
stuff, grass cuttings, some washing powders, and personal soap,
some printed materials, then
even; my new computer; had something; 'in it' when it' warmed up.
We have to be; careful with
pen grips mouse pads, many plants in my garden; will affect me if
they are being cut. Going to
the shops; is a thing of the past, as I always get sick afterward,
now that has become 'a treat' I
do when/if I feel I can handle to become sick yet another time. You
know I could continue none
stop, with all the things I never do anymore. Yet, that is in the
past for me now I finally learned.
THAT BLISS; COMES FROM FEELING HEALTHY, FROM LIVING IN AWARENESS.
FOR; AN INNER POWER THEN COMES FORT, ABOUT HOW TO COPE MY LIFE
Yet the hardest; and the most difficult; and most dangerous
attacks, has always been from my
FOODS. FOOD MY PRECIOUS FOODS HAS ALL BUT LEFT MY LIFE, NOW TO BE
ABLE; TO SURVIVE.
Even these attacks; can be different every time, more or less;
depending what it is' I am eating
how sensitive I am at that time, and what part of my body, was
affected. It has been very, very
difficult and very frightening experiences to have food allergies
or sensitivities OAS always hurt.
As time that went by to I/we and my doctor my specialists and
dietitians found out these foods
that I still can eat. It took years, and it took all my inner
power; to stay calm whenever; I had to
eat, or try to eat different foods, always ready with my adrenaline
and other medications, and
THE PREMEDICATIONS, WAS NEVER, ABLE TO QUELL ATTACKS COMPLETELY.
SO LOST IS FOREVER THE FESTIVE SEASONS FOR ME NOW AS I GO WITHOUT
Yet its OK, for my life is getting back to a level where I better
can live with it all, in inner peace.
It has been a huge trip; to come to this point, a steep learning
curve. It was devastating a long
time when we learned about the Food I could eat i.e getting attacks
when eating any food with
the proteins that I reacted to. Times with breathlessness and
asthma; spots and swelling, with
vomiting and diarrhea and forever an adrenaline injecting kit ready
or in use. It was the worst
time of our lives. Whenever I was eating a foods I had not had for a
while; to just; wait and see
what would happen and we never had to wait for long, the reaction
came very, very fast and it
was such a nerve wracking experience not to know if this was it, if
that was my last meal in life.
YET, WE ALL HAVE TO HAVE SOME FOOD, TO SURVIVE TO LIVE OUR LIVES.
WE WILL NEVER FORGET; THAT HORROR TIME, FOR AS LONG, AS WE LIVE,
Now living a simplified life, living in a world where I better can
live without always becoming so
sick.Yet beside all these foods and drinks I had to give up, there
was a million other things too.
Gone are the toothbrushes with rubber grips and gone are all the
clothes with elastic too, shoes
small pieces on any phone,calculators,computer mouse with
rubber/latex, pencil grips, erasers
any glue and all no slip material, rubber bands, yes anything with
any rubber grip, some cords
tyres & carpet with rubber backing adhesive tapes, medical
equip. on and on it goes. Yet other
things can be difficult to avoid, i.e food preparation with latex
gloves, food packaging, the seal
in car doors or other seals and gasket or hoses hidden within
things, yes we still find new stuff.
THIS WILL JUST GIVE A SMALL PICTURE, OF ALL LATEX RUBBER IN OUR
ITS NO SMALL FEAT TO LEARN TO LIVE IN A; LATEX-FOOD-MATERIAL WORLD
I KNOW. I STILL WILL GET ATTACK I HOPE AND I BELIEVE I CAN KEEP
THEM T BAY, SO MY
BODY CAN FIND PEACE AND FORGET, IT EVER REACTED THIS WAY, I BELIEVE
I CAN HEAL.
ALSO DESPITE ALL 'IN THE KNOW' SAY I HAVE THIS FOR THE REST OF MY
PLEASE LISTEN TO
WHAT I TELL YOU ABOUT NOW;
THESE ALLERGIES; CUT DEEP INTO ANY LIFE, DEEP INTO WHAT WE CAN DO.
DO NOT; END UP; WHERE WE ARE NOW. LOOK AFTER YOU, AND YOUR FAMILY.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE BE AWARE THAT FAMILY, OR ANY OTHER PARTY TIME IS WHERE THE GREATEST
DANGERS ARE FOUND WHERE PEOPLE OFTEN DO THINGS' DIFFERENT TO WHAT
THEY NORMALLY DO REGARDING FOODS, DECORATION, CLOTHES OR BY THEIR
USE OF PERFUMES OR AFTERSHAVES, BY WHAT THEY DRINK OR WHAT IS
OFTEN WE GO TO DIFFERENT PLACES, WHERE THINGS ARE AROUND US WE ARE
ALLERGIC TO, AND SEE BECAUSE IT DO NOT AFFECT OTHER PEOPLE; IT IS
DIFFICULT FOR THEM, TO UNDERSTAND OUR ENORMOUS ALLERGY/SENSITIVITY.
ITS SOMETIMES IMPOSSIBLE TO BE THERE AT ALL; WITHOUT SERIOUSLY
A LIFE THREATENING ALLERGIC REACTION, AND IT COMES; SO FAST... SO
SOMETIMES THE COLD, THE HOT, THE NATURAL EVEN GET US SHAKEN UP TOO
SO NOW WE DO LIVE WITH ENORMOUS RISK TO OUR LIVES ITS NONE STOP TOO
Yes, we must live and we must eat, and breathe; to live a good
life. yet if you get severe food
allergies and serious or acute asthma and anaphylaxis then know
life as we know it is altered
forever, nothing; no thing will ever be the same anymore. As life;
is enormous isolated and all
that we do, has to be planed in the smallest detail' all the time
no impulses, no urgency when
doing anything, think and think; and think ones more before we do
anything. Touch, eat even
all we drink, all our food is prepared; separately, different just
as we eat different foods now
where so many, many things can make us instant sick, or give us the
delayed bodily reactions
So many NO, NO; so many sorry; I can't do this' or that. Yes it
very, very difficult & depressing.
Yet we/I must find a way; to live the life I have now, find back to
happiness find peace in soul.
Therefore, I see not so much more; what I can, or can't do, I just
don't DO; what I know I can't
then I concentrate on, what I can, how I can use my time, to be of
some benefit, without being
put in dangers all the time. Then my mind, my body, and my soul can
relax, and feel just fine.
I love when I can sit outside when I can watch the clouds bloom,
and see the birds being busy
feeding their young, listen to music, reading a book & talk to
family and friends, on the phone.
I'm writing much, poetry is really healing, and to write my
thoughts do heal too, to write what I
have learned on this my/our Journey is good for my soul, as I can
give you what I was missing.
It is difficult; to have people coming around, if they wear
something that set my body of like a
rocket I and these serious attacks scare them for life as they
become aware; how we truly live.
I have despite this; had much help in my life in my days to cope
with this, often from strangers
people that suddenly realized how lucky they are, yet was able to
help me/us somehow; to be
to become strong by the way they understood. Other people have left
our life, as they was not
able to cope with these huge life changing alterations in our life,
was not able to cope, with me
being sick, or needy, being angry or crying when they got over
their own so serious sicknesses
and I felt sorry for myself that I was still in this life a life I
must learn to accept learn to become
friends with yet again. The hardest thing has been to let go of big
celebrations, our own or the
people we know and love. Yet we understand it is impossible to have
people understand, that
I cant be near the balloons, the perfumes, smoke and its really
hard to 'see' people eat foods.
Foods, that was no problem before all of this, Food I ones loved to
eat and to cook, so going to
parties; has become a too big reminder, of all that is no more
possible in my life. Yes I know it
sound pathetic, yet I do not know how you would feel; about not
alone giving all of this up, also
not even being able to be there; because of these dangers; it
represent. No, do not think for a
moment I did not try, I did; and again and again, I was left; with
serious allergy attacks that left
me serious sick. Just remember that our triggers come; as inhaling,
ingesting, injecting & touch.
So it is to protect my now fragile body, mind, spirit and soul,
that I have found; it is easier; just
to step back. Then I can feel safe, then I know, what I do, then I
can think and I can have a life.
A life where I can begin to heal all this damage all these
reactions has given me for a long time.
I am not going to give up, or to give in, I am not going to feel
like a victim, or any jailed person.
I am free, in my spirit & from my mind the way I just change
things around' and away from any
pain or fright, that I get. I look after my body as best as I can, I
believe that I can be better too
yet that will only happen when I try. I know my limits now and they
are the ones that has made
me strong, they are the ones; that has shown me, where I can trust
myself to live & to be; Free,
Free from suffering and big pains, free from frightening life
threatening anaphylaxis or Asthma.
This; is my life now, against all the odds I am going to live This
My Life to the best of my ability.
I will protect myself, I will be fully aware of what I do, I will
not say; oh maybe I can do this now
for that landed me in trouble far too many times in these years
gone by as I didn't understand.
FOR YEARS I CAN
No more will I freely go around in your world, for I have learned
the hard way through pain
and huge warnings from my body, how dangerous it truly can be for
me for you and for all.
No more; are they going to hold me ransom, no more am I listening,
to anyone else than my
own body, it is that and only that which can tell me about what
dangers I encounter in a day.
No more will I do things because I think I can, or someone tells me
should try, only and only
if I feel safe, if I am ready and able to treat any adverse
reaction my body goes into as Now.
No more; will I feel so sick as I did for years upon years because I
didn't know enough about
what truly was going on and I just pushed myself. As others denied
so too did I unfortunately.
No more will I feel sad that I can't do this or that as I live my
life I will feel lucky that I still has
a Life, the Greatest Husband, a Beautiful Son, my Family, and
Friends & Strangers, who smile.
No more am I going to let anyone decide, what is the best for me
without I know that it is too,
for it is here; I run into the greatest troubles, and that is now; a
no, no for me; I live in safety.
No more will I easy give in or give up; thinking it is all too
hard. No more am I going to just sit
back, and cry and cry for what has been done to me, I am going to
show, that it can be lived.
No more am I going to be bitter or angry or feel that I have been
left behind in all others lives
just because I can't join them in their lives. I am going; to make
the best; of all that I have left.
SEE I STILL HAVE TIME LEFT, I CAN STILL OFFER SOMETHING TO SOMEONE I
CAN LIVE MY LIFE
BECAUSE, I HAVE BEEN HELPED; NO END, BY THESE PEOPLE, WHO CARE
ABOUT ME; AS I AM
SO PLEASE COME AND JOIN ME ON MY HEALING JOURNEY, NOW AND THEN I
I DO KNOW; I CAN SURVIVE; TO MY TIME; IS UP, IF I KEEP LOOKING
AFTER; MY SELF; FULLY.
I WILL STEP UP & OUT IN MYSELF, I WILL BECOME SOMETHING I
DIDN'T KNOW I WAS IN LIFE.
I WILL NOW THANK EVERY SOUL THAT HAS HELPED ME REACH TO THIS STAGE
IN MY SELF
I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR ALL I HAVE LEARNED, ALL I HAVE DISCOVERED
ABOUT ALL OF LIFE.
I AM SO DELIGHTED I STILL HAVE A LIFE, I HAVE MY SMILES, AS MY
LAUGHTER GIVES PAINS.
I DO APPRECIATE, THE HARD LESSONS; THESE HARD YEARS, AS THEY
TAUGHT; SO MUCH.
SO NOW I STEP BACK INTO MY HEALING PEACE; IN MY QUIET LIFE, WITH
MY; LOVED ONES.
AS I AM
YES, IT IS 'A JOB' THAT IS VERY TIME CONSUMING, AS IT IS ALSO TO
BEING AWARE; THAT IT
MAYBE INSTEAD; IS OUR WORLD THAT NEEDS THIS HEALING BEFORE ALL DO
END AS WE'RE.
YET, I MARCH ON IN MY DAYS ON THE HEALING ROAD TO BECOME
ATTACK-FREE. ON THIS
ROAD, I KNOW THERE ARE MANY BUMPS, I WILL CONQUER THEM ALL; BY MY
MY WILL; TO HEAL
MYSELF NO MATTER; HOW LONG, IT IS GOING TO TAKE
OR IF I FEEL ISOLATED IN THIS MY PROTECTED
IT IS A PLACE WHERE I HAVE COME NEAR THE CREATOR OF ALL THERE IS I
FEEL SO BLESSED.