... ITS JUST TO BE, AND TO LIVE POSITIVE, AND ...

YET THAT CAN BE DIFFICULT
♥
SO LOVING YOUR LIFE NO MATTER WHAT.
FOR LIFE, IS SO MUCH MORE, THAN WE NOW; KNOW.
Life; is for living and its for knowing; who you/I/we truly are.
LIFE IS GREAT ♥ BE IN IT ♥ AND DO LIVE IT

I WOULD LIKE, TO SAY TO YOU; LIVE YOUR LIFE FULLY, LIVE IT WELL
AND JUST APPRECIATE ALL THAT YOU HAVE,
FOR, YOUR LIFE TOO, CAN SUDDENLY BECOME, SO VERY DIFFERENT.

... PLEASE HELP ME ...
GIVE THESE HELPING HANDS, TO OTHERS
BY SPREADING THIS KNOWLEDGE

as many people, encounters big changes in life.

If IT becomes 'turned upside down' or 'inside out' suddenly
fears raise its heads in so many situations & in all our lives
just, like this; my own anaphylaxis, did for me,
...yet; fear is fear:...

...but only; if we let it; take hold...
♥ inside us ♥
...then, it turns around to panic...

...and that can come through everything...
◊ when we start to react ◊
...for that; not to happen; think...

now; thinker-re'think

or start to pray

AT LEAST; BREATHE; so just
stop, and feel your breath
if feeling; 'panicy' breathe be
aware, of your own breath
it will help you stay calm
if you've a panic attack

so you are aware; of yourself
know how your body reacts, in all details
as we must learn, what it is, and what we can do.

yet
be aware of anaphylaxis shock
and know; your own; allergy reactions
know any anaphyaxis; is different
anaphylaxis can mean Death in minutes
we must use our rescue medication

if it is a beginning Anaphylaxis you will need instant help
FOR
Is an anaphylaxis different; from any other 'disease ?
...YES, IT IS...
Anaphylaxis is a defense, of/in almost all the species; living on Earth;
its a brilliant and an incredible protection; of LIFE.
Its a defense from cells, not to become altered or sick.
Its a defense of/for; the survival of the species.

THE BODY IS GOING INTO; SHOCK.
it needs; a rescue medication fast.
OTHER'WISE IT CAN BE THE DEATH.

IT CAN BECOME AN EMERGENCY; SO FAST
( our bodies, can go into many kinds; of shock )
ITS A BUILD'IN PROTECTION; IN OUR DNA

yet can trigger, even freeze, our bodies
for it is going into full fear/fight for our survival,
it is quickly or slowly closing our bodies/organs down,
trying to have you survive, it is an important part
of this our human or animal genome too.

IT JUST SHOW HOW RESILIENT WE ALL ARE
IT HAS BEEN; WITH US, A LONG TIME, TOO
IT HARDLY CHANGED A THOUSAND YEARS
IT HAS NOW, GONE OUT OF OUR CONTROL
IT NEEDS TO BE CALMED DOWN, IN US ALL

as it react; against the perils; of adulteration.
it was made to help us all to survive
Its written into our DNA
It's the story of Earth
so listen and see,
see it, in all the colors
it has been; written down
see it through-out all the shadows
it is coded and ready to protect our bodies

so please; do not be afraid, now
learn to live with it all

not; in panic or fear
... be wise and ...
'instead see how fine'tuned it all truly is'
do not become afraid; become aware and care
'this is the big warning sign for everyone'
YES DO KNOW
its a danger for us
it comes as a lightning
in our lives as over'protecting
yes, its known; its very 'OLD' news
'This is also why; I write this for you, now'
do not live; by default but by inner will & power.
Do not become fearful, be informed to protect all life

( A part; taken from; Nobel Lectures; Physiology or Medicine, 1901-1921)
By: Charles Richet; Research of Anaphylaxis.
Yes, it is a long time ago, yet that is exactly, what has happened here too.
* YOU CAN ALSO FIND THE FULL LECTURE, ON 'MY LINK PAGE' *


ABOUT ANAPHYLAXIS ONLY
I'll quote here in part:
'We are so constituted that we can never recieve other proteins into the blood than
those that has been modified by digestive juices Every time an alien or changed
protein penetrates: by effraction the organism suffers and becomes resistant, this
resistance; lies in an increased sensitivity, like a sort of revolt, against the second
parenteral injection, which would be fatal. At this second injection, this organism
'mans' its defense and answers by the anaphylaxis shock ridding it of the altered'.
( or by a sacrifice of one single organisme; or LIFE, for the benefit of the many's survival? )
♦
( know, a virus operate different in our bodies )
It clearly stats a protein; coming through; skin, lungs or mucus membranes is
at risk, by our body revolt as anaphylaxis, a huge fight back; will start up' in us.
It is also precisely, in these areas our allergies starts up where cells' re'act from.
What kind of altered proteins? can/do penetrate your body from these your own
daily surroundings.
So many cells are involved in this, its not simple at all. Its like a maze inside us.
Every organ; has its job and cells are sometimes answering, to many voices' too.
Again, please do not become frightened, do know facts proper, and stand up for
yourself, do not take everything as face-value, and do not believe; in everything.

KNOW WHAT IS IN YOU AND AROUND YOU TOO.
Now think of all these new materials we have around us (that is not eatable too)
All our tissues that comes in contact with 'the outer world' has these protective
cells, ready to protect us, immediately.
This is why I say everyone is at risk, and not only by using latex, its all proteins
as these are blended into/with all forms of chemicals too; just like latex gloves.
Protection in us breaks down get spoiled and things starts to go horrible wrong
we can react as a direct irritation. When outer chemicals do release the reaction.
Any 'body'irritation will release; body chemicals throughout/into all our tissues.
Some reactions goes one way, attacking our own cells, others overprotect them.
Why ? do we not ever stop up, and truly see what it is, we do; to our own bodies.
ITS ABOUT; THE TOO LITTLE IS NOT ENOUGH; AND TOO MUCH WILL SPILL OVER.

( surely, we do not have to keep acting like this, in our lives)
We just have to open our eyes and see, listen to the nature and speak our truth.
♥♥♥
How do we know? If all new; or man'made molecules in any 'New' changed food,
arriving onto our platter is/isn't proper tested & no warnings; that it has not been.
What can/will be modified by; our digestive juices?
What about all of these new kinds of materials we use?
WHAT IS AROUND US ALL ? WHAT DO WE NEED, TO CHANGE ?
♥
WHY IS ALL ALLERGIES; NOW MARCHING AHEAD; LIKE NEVER BEFORE ?
(there are still so many why's)
♥
All of this seems to have been forgotten; by all these sciences we have on Earth
I do appeal; to all of our scientists, to please; re-view what it is; you all now do.
◊◊◊
Which of these new (altered) proteins, or even chemicals, is not being; modified
by our digestive juices, what has changed; our world so much around lately too?
◊◊◊
This was written, before we changed; 'every molecule' around & throughout it all,
by refraction, penetration; through skin or other means; into a body: It; do learn.
◊◊◊
So what do not 'kill off ' or diminish our immune system, make it much stronger
yet it makes it so strong, that it is ready to kill us too, so no more harm is done.
♥
Here I'm not saying we start to eat everything either, to try and become immune.
Let that be something great these scientists find a mechanism to sort out for all.

SO, WHAT HAVE WE ALL LEARNED?
WHAT IS; A TRUE 'ADULTERATION'?
WHAT IS; A EFFRACTION IN US?
WHAT IS; CHANGING FOODS?
WHAT IS; A PROTECTION?
WHAT IS; IN'RICHMENT?
WHAT IS; SO HEALTHY?
WHAT IS IT TO LEARN?
WHAT IS; DANGEROUS?
WHAT IS; AN ADDITIVE?
WHAT IS; A MISLEADING?
WHAT IS; THE TRUE FACTS?
WHAT IS; CHANGING THINGS?
WHAT IS; THIS GM FOOD, NOW?
WHAT IS; AN ADULTERATION, NOW?
IS IT ALL, TURNED IN-SIDE AND OUT?

Do we know what we are doing at all?
FOR
other'wise; we are all being caught, mis'treated as

the other side of all this; is our weakened immune system.
(and they are both as bad as each other to live with; they make us sick)
Just, like all our lives become, when turned; up-side down.

...or Protecting us by: IGA,IGE,IGG,IGM, T'cells...all Defending us...
TH'1 < > ∞ < > TH'2

-and-in-side-too-then-to-out-
...they're like a chain of cells, and they do start; a chain'reaction...

AS A HEALTHY DNA IN EVERY CELL, IS A MUST
TO PROTECT US
(not defend us)
FROM HARM

YET SOMETIMES THEY'LL GET RUSTY INSTEAD
THEN THEY CAN BREAK DOWN
AS THEY; DEFEND US
(for we have defenses, defenses everywhere trying to; defend ourselves!)
any over-protection/defense can make us extremely sick.
Its our always; alert Immune system.
I Am sure that it is from these reactions, a healing come
that is able; to cure all our diseases
from a fine balance and a knowing of how it all do work.

CELLS REACT FROM
learning, still learning; from everything.
INSIDE AND OUT
from all the things the body must fight.
TO KEEP US ALL ALIVE

All is so much more and so alive in all.
YET, IT IS A LIFE, AND I WILL LIVE IT: TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY.
DRESSED, TO THE BARE BONES OF THINGS, I STOOD FIRM AND STILL.
As I truly had to learn; to survive, it all.
SO NOW
...AFTER KNOWING ALL OF THIS...
YOU'RE WELCOME

WELCOME
TO MY STORY

NO; I DO NOT WALK LIKE THIS ALONE
OTHER, THAN IN MY MIND, TO SET MY SELF FREE
PLEASE

MY LIFE

AS


I WELCOME YOU
yet do know

MY LIFE
CAN ONLY BE ENTERED

♥ BY THE GREATEST OF CARE ♥

as I had to loose or release, all my 'defenses'
to stay, in my life

...as I now, do live very very protected to stay alive, therefore my life...
Is now very quit, yet I Am at peace with this; new life form, I do not blame I do not provoke any
new reaction of anaphylaxis either, which does not mean I will not get them anymore.(For we all
know that accidents do happen.) I wake up happy, that I have been granted another day to be
the best that I can be, for The People I Love or Know. I also try to bring this out to as many as I
can, so they hopefully do not end up this same place. So they can live and continue live and do
all the things they NOW take for granted. Just as I did, before all of this started. I Lived my Life,
I, was strong and healthy. I was lively. I was busy. I was very, very happy; for I had the best life,
happy go lucky smiling to all and enjoying the greatness of My Life, as it truly was; and it still is;
My Precious Life
for
Letting all my defenses go is truly the hardest thing
to release all fear and stand unprotected yet knowing; I was supported.

Its still a beautiful yet simple life.
I wish for it, to continue to be; My Great Life
I still feel, I have something to offer. I love my family, my friends,
I have found inner peace; and a new wealth
and I still enjoy being who I am.

Yet, our life changes all the time, it can come from the outside of us, or from our inside.

of life.
When I decided to make this site, I had to search my soul; why it was my wish, what it was; I so
wanted to give out. My reason is/was; that it must be of value, it must benefit someone, it must
show the goodness in a life and in all, and it must be very honest and lovingly told to be of use.
Trying to see all things in the small and in the big picture; of 1 self and of every'thing around us

As we all contain; a diff. range of; so many coping mechanisms, there will always; be some for
for you too. I discovered I used a wide array; in ways of coping with my 'New Life' depending of
what I had to cope with or if I had earlier experiences in my life that could help me to cope now
Coping mechanisms spring from upbringing & from our genes even from our sum of experience

Things changes through love, through children, through health and through, what others may be
doing to us in life, consciously or unconsciously. Things can change in a second for anyone of us
So we are always in a defense position, we have replaced: 'protected and safe' with a defense.
Please when you read about me do remember; I ended up with the most serious kind of allergy

Whatever serious dis-ease we may encounter on our way, it is there for us to learn to cope with.
It doesn't mean; we should hide our'selves, our feelings, or our lives away, or not cry or be sad.
We are allowed to turn to each other for help and support to we can walk with a joy in life again
Dangers or sorrow comes in many disguises in a thousand forms, we can better cope; knowing.

For that means; we don't walk across roads blind'folded and with earmuffs on & killed. We have
all learned through life to watch out for dangers, yet; that can only be done when we are told or
if we learn it directly or the hard way. I didn't know about Latex Allergies, and I was not warned.
I knew and I had seen another of my fellow workers with the chemical allergy but my hands had
nothing seriously first
just an itch (its an allergy)
some cough, and sneeze, too
I didn't know about latex powder,
covering; every thing; in & around me.
It was corn powder; Food 'but was changed' .
(please, do read about powders; on my page re. all latex)

It was all black & white. Use gloves; or else.
I was also told; I would be fired, not using them.
Yes, I knew a danger; of not using gloves in my work.
No, I wasn't tested or looked after while; I was wearing them.
From very simple none imp. symptoms I suddenly had anaphylaxis.

I didn't have other allergies than a pinicillin and a sulfa' allergy
these, where very easy to cope with and to avoid in my life too.
Yet had never been life threatening, just as very severe rashes.
At my work; it seemed irrelevant; to ask us about any allergies.
That, as I have discovered later was another big mistake done.
For No warnings, No Knowledge = No Choice either for anyone.

So here, You get One from me.
A defends wards off; protection holds safe.
I was being; defended; by latex, not protected.
Now I will light the shadow roads; to reveal surprises to you.
Then you do not have to live without; all your own possibilities in life.
You, can choose to know, you can choose to close your eyes and ears to this.
PLEASE
Choose to know; how best to stay protected and safe, without a big defense.
Without any fears, for you then Know what to look out for & can look around you; proper.

...So, now there is no need; to play dice; with your life...
as our industries grows continually, other problems will later come to the surface and with other
results, and from new; "things" in our daily lives, therefore we must develop a new form of inner
awareness in our bodies so we can live in safety in an environment. Its very, very important and
we must help each other. We can not pack each other; in cotton wool neither should we. We can
however treat life with respect, and each other on this earth, as we would like to be treated too.
...just live and let live, be the one you seek in another...

...try live in joy, a fearless life; treasure what you have...
Yet, that can only be done; in an environment of trust & for thousands of years, we have learned
not to trust anyone or anything around us, mistrust has been sneaking into all our lives by these
ways we treat each other all the time. We are the ones who have birthed all of this, we are these
ones, ourselves who causes each others fears, we are the ones who can change it all back again
if we can go through the pains and the darkness of all this mistrust into a world based; on trust.
...trust that; what you receive in your life is yours to live...

...live it fearlessly; live it with a vigor & great creativity...
Please again, remember when we see; a fear straight in the eye just by naming it, we recognize
we do not own it, knowing fear is truly nothing to fear; but that it is an armor of all our own past
experiences. So before; we venture further in my story, you will have to understand; all of these
feelings, as that was something I too, have had to deal with, living through this; in my life. When
we know exactly, what fear is and how fear behave we can use its power to en'power ourselves.
...be bold; yet kind, be forward thinking, yet; all loving...

...find your own inner power; become an earth pioneer...
For truly; the biggest thing that can happen in our lives, is when we can transfer our fears into a
new inner power, of pure new raw energy; to create; a new form for life. That comes; automatic
when we see fear; and stand up to our fears, when we go through our fears as if we where in a
huge fight; with a Lion or a Tiger, we have conquered our worst enemy, and we have won a new
place in a brand new and fearless world; where we know we can pull down our defenses its OK.
...so we all together; can recreate that; which freezes us...

...being aware of that which make us so hot; that we fight...
If AS IT IS SAID and now being proven too, we are spoiling our own environment and this all so
Beautiful Earth of ours, big time. We are in for; a very tough ride, a ride; that is going to be very
bumpy, and we will be doing it together, this time around. Then we must now, stand very firmly
together either we want to or not, as mother nature decide that enough is enough and shake us.
Our world is filled our hospitals are filled our bodies are filled and all our days, are filled all up.
...just see the world we together, are producing none stop...

FOR
our disregard and discord with our natural world, has now dead'ned us all so much, we give up
People all over this world, live in horrible conditions with hunger and without a roof and no help.
It is all running over spilling out to be taken into account to be seen and to be fixed by all of us.
Pollution levels increase so fast, yet we see it not, as we run after lost time, lost lives to sickness
and death do us apart, for all do now increase further, as our own hungers for more and better
things increase so fast. We still see it not; before we ourselves is almost left for dead, in all this.

BY
looking truly on this world, without rose colored glasses, in this 21 AD we are, we should be; so
ashamed. We do not care at all, for any living thing; be it soil,air,water,plant,animals or humans.
We can no longer ask "Why me"? for it truly is; why not me! In this spoiled world of ours, we have
created this, so fast, that not many of us truly has had time, to see it before; it is dumped on us
we all know it deep inside, yet before it hit home to us, we do not re'act. That's inclusive myself.
Now it is only with a togetherness with positive & loving thoughts and actions, we all can survive.
This you will understand completely by reading my pages about the hidden things we are doing
BUT, IT IS OUR INDIVIDUAL CHOICE

YET KNOW; ALL IS BACK TO FRONT
WE OFTEN HATE WITHOUT THINKING DEEPER OVER WHY
IF WE THINK IT THROUGH; WE CAN SEE IT IS ONLY FEARS,
FEARS SPOIL SO MANY THINGS, IN OUR LIVES AND HEART.

WE DESTROY A HEALTH WITHOUT A CARE THAT ISN'T A HEALTH CARE.
WE DESTROY THE JUSTICE BY LOOKING AT IT AS JUST A GAME TO PLAY,
WE DESTROY THEN A GREAT WEALTH FOR ALL, JUST TO SAY; 'WE WON'
WE DESTROY OUR WISDOM, BY THINKING; IT IS JUST OUR; KNOWLEDGE.
WE DESTROY TRUTHS BY MANIPULATING OUR TRUTH TO FIT INTO LIFE.
WE DESTROY PEACE; FOR ALL BY THE WARS WE FIGHT; CONTINUOUSLY.
WE DESTROY OUR FREEDOM 'BY LETTING A DEFAULT'; INTO OUR LIVES.
WE DESTROY LOVE BY NOT HAVING KINDNESS AND ANY; COMPASSION.
WE DESTROY MANY LIVES, BY NOT CARING OR SHARING; A TRUE LOVE.
WE DESTROY EARTH; BY NOT RESPECTING EVERY & ALL LIVING THING'.

IF WE CAN JUST RELAX A LITTLE, WE KNOW NOT A HATE
HATE FOSTERS FEAR. ONLY LOVE AND CARE DIMINISH IT
TO TRULY LIVE TOGETHER; IN PEACE & LOVE ON EARTH.
THEN WE HAVE, TURNED IT ALL AROUND

FOR ALWAYS WE EACH; HAVE A CHOICE

NOW IGNITE YOUR LOVING HEART
AND JUST
REMEMBER THIS PLEASE; ALL LIFE IS VERY PRECIOUS

It does not matter who we are or where we live. It does matter, how we live the life we have got.
I am still better of, than so many other people in this world. Yet by reading this my story from a
western view no one would think it so. I have warm, I have Love and I can drink the water and a
few more things can I do, have a bit of food. Yes I do Live even its a far cry from my former life.
This, is something now for us all, to be aware of as 'things' is now really getting; into our bodies.
Please remember, I am only writing this, because it can be any ones life, in this our world today.
I am not complaining, I'm only trying to explain; this new form of dis-ability that has now arrived

To tell you it's the way I can live, where I avoid risking my life, in everything I do in a daily world.
There's different stages to this Latex Hypersensitivity for its ever evolving; depending the doses,
and it shows up, after any serious attack; when you live in this so highly sensitive state of health.
That is if you survive the anaphylaxis in the first place. Yet it never stops there anymore, for me.
See our immune system is highly developed, its job IS; to protect us from this harm; to our body
It is now at a point, where all my cells; keep being on this high alert. It is now; 'Mastocytosis like'
where it do and will affect the whole of my body for a long time or all the time, I will never know

Most times it affect; my lungs, heart, mouth, intestines, all these immune cells nerves and brain,
with severe breathing & heartbeat problems hoarseness, sores, pains, lumps, swellings & spots.
Confusion, blueness, severe headaches, nausea, diarrhoea, bladder irritation; that slowly eases,
bone pains, muscle pains, cramps, and severe chest tightness, with coughing, and lots of mucus
tiredness, lymph node swellings goes up & down they can even completely disappear for awhile
all at this same time, yet not always in the same order or degree, again it all depends, what it is
that has started this ravine in the first place. How long it takes to get better only my body knows

This is all happening besides these Anaphylaxis I still get occasionally.
Some symptoms belong together it is anaphylaxis too. Other comes in
through 'the back door later' and they last for days or even for weeks.
***
When I have pains, swellings, breathing difficulties I can be difficult to
be around, as I can't even have; painkillers, react to them too. I don't
bottle up and hide my pain, I got to have an outlet, for all this; misery
***
I am incredibly lucky; I have such an understanding family, they know
me well and know; that as soon my pain disappear, I am back to my
old and positive self again until it all start once more from something.
***
Recovering times comes around again and again, now healing myself.
So I'm still living, behind this curtain; of life, hidden away from you all.
Yet my life's flame is burning strong as I still has so much to do in life.

All I do now; is in small drops, at anyone time, otherwise it upset that balance within; I' Can Live.
My life has changed, I had to change internally and externally, I had to find a new way to live life
with it all, from this damage I too have got from the negligent behavior of this commercial world.
Where money and prestige is a reigning force of so many workplaces without care, for a worker.
For You too, can reach this new stage if you body goes into a sensitivity so high that it affects the
whole body. Most of the time you have great pains and so many things starts to break down too
you never know what is around the next corner. This is where you really feel you are so isolated
this is the point that is not understood. Only these people, who live with you from day to day do.
For; in my heightened sensitivity; anything will/do affect my body, to it is all calmed down, again
AS I HAVE TO LEAVE MY FORMER LIFE, AND YOUR WORLD BEHIND

SO NOW
on the very few days, where I can function, to the best of my ability.
I have found many new ways to live and to be happy, many different ways,
by; knowing my risk.

'And a can do attitude'
YET; IT IS REALLY HARD WORK
DAY AFTER DAY, KEEPING IN BALANCE
I have become aware, that it was only through my own ability; to distract myself,
that I could survive mentally and psychological, to be so restricted, in my life, as I am now.
Yet, I still believe in my Healing, I still believe I can do something with inner help.
Setting my body into new Balance

... these few days have become my treasure times where...
I read, and I write, I talk on the phone, when I am able to. I'll study on the internet, all that I can
and what ever subject I find interesting at any time. I have my procedures with medications and
must follow a strict diet. I practice; yoga and tai-chi, whenever I can, and I meditate too. I keep;
as Positive in my daily life, as I possible can. I sit in the garden, there I listen or read as most of
my former love for gardening, now too is a distant memory, I listen to great music, and I do also
watch documentary and some movies too. All of it ... in the safety, of our own home. Yes my life
is now the form of tranquility that so many are seeking. I know I am very lucky. Yes I Do Know It
I GIVE MY THANKS TO WHERE IT BELONGS

When I pray
...For I have quiet times in myself with the God Power in me...
This, inner Divine Power, always helps me to believe, that I will be Healed.
For Miracles can/do happen and I DO believe strongly in the Power of ALL.
...I know anything is possible if we set our goal with a Divine...
I am calmed no end

NOW I WANT TO GIVE MY HUSBAND A BIG THANK YOU
I Want to Thank My Husband he is just the best, he is always there in support, in body, in spirit
and by his loving soul, nothing is too big a problem, nothing can't get fixed or changed around.
He is the Love of my life, my best friend, and he do not just give in to me; if I'm wrong, this has
given me so much support, at the times where I could not see right from wrong, in this new life.
He has given up; so much, of his former life too, to support me, to be with me be there for me
I hold him so dear, I hold him so near, I hold him deep in my soul for all he has and do for me.
OUR LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN PRECIOUS AND FULL OF CARE.
I DO LOVE HIM SO MUCH

HE IS THE LOVE AND THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE
as I am always shown great blessings in life from everywhere
Our Son, with his happy smiles his caring and uplifting words, has carried me on wings through
the worst of times, he is always there with hugs and a willingness to step in and help if needed
always there with loving hands of support, with comfort a great chat willing ears to all my pains
yet, giving up so much; of what was in our lives together; of before, so we still; can be together
AS A LOVE AND CARE IS ALWAYS IN THE AIR

I am/we are always supported too by;
our family and friends, nabours reach out too.
My family is always there, never more than a thought or a phone call away, to brighten any day
so many memories, so much to talk about, as life too, can be difficult for everyone everywhere.
Our Friends they had a rough time; to understand they can't just come around, yet phone calls
is always there between us; to support and to spirit'up whenever the blackness take overhand.
SEE THEIR SUPPORT IS WORTH MORE THAN GOLD TO ME, THAT HAS TRULY GIVEN ME GREAT
HOPES AND OFTEN IT DRIED ALL OF MY TEARS
AS THEY; WHERE WIPED AWAY
BY ALL THEIR LOVE

000
YET FOR NOW
STILL my warnings...do come...fast/faster and NOW
so many of my reactions are BAD/or SERIOUS triggers, and I do not always now, when it is not
triggers/reactions from everywhere

Mast Cell in a calm state Mast Cell in an Eruption
making breathing so difficult, giving swellings and pains among all other things
( squished and up against a wall again)

STILLNESS
SO, I AM BACK; TO MY HEALING
LUCKY AS I NOW KNOW, OUR BODY CAN HEAL ALMOST ALL,
TIME DO TAKE CARE OF THE REST
IN STILLNESS, AND
SEE, OUR BODIES ARE TRULY; SO MIRACULOUS
'THEY' TRULY; HAVE A LIFE OF THEIR OWN
'THEY WILL KNOW AND DO; 'SEE'; IT ALL
AS; 'THEY'; CAN SENSE 'THINGS 'TOO,
ALL OUR CELLS TALK NONE STOP

'nerve cells talking'
Transforming, reconnecting, evolving with everything around them;
in service to us all.

( Like this magic circle here)
Never sleeping never standing still always trying their best to do with what it is we give to them
So what are we feeding our bodies, our souls and how do we use our own spirit to choose it all.
Drowning ourselves; in this sea of "New Things" around us that we must have, that we can't live
without? No do not think for a minute that I haven't been there too for I certainly have it was me
too, I was and I am no different to anyone else on this earth. Yet I together with so many others
now in the world we've paid the price, with the damage it has caused in my/our lives today too,
by our cancers, allergies sensitivities and many mental disorders too.
OUR IMMUNE SYSTEMS ORGANS AND CELLS
( working so tireless, to make us healthy. They help us all to stay alive, and so fine.)
Yet, sometimes it becomes the body's cure; that kills us instead.

FOR SEE
Every things goes awray when we can't trust people around us
to understand; how sensitive we are, we become very anxious
we'll become so overprotective of ourselves and of everything.
If we've had experiences of neglect, or of a can't care; attitude
it is incredible difficult, to trust anyone, literally with your life
especially when you know what is happening, and they do not.
THAT DOES NOT HELP US AT ALL.

So to live with this is not as any other sickness or rather dis-ease in life, for our limit or the turn
a point of death can be measured in seconds, minutes; at any given time, just as a heart attack
yet not many of us; go around thinking of we can get a heart attack in the next now, that is now
the way, we have to live to stay protected and to stay alive, we must be aware of all that we do.
We'll never know; when we have been near something; our bodies react to, we cant always; see
all that is affecting us, we have to live it; by a trial and error, and try to survive it every time too.
How would you live; A LIFE like this, all the time?

...See its now my body; that's telling me, warning me, every time...
and I do listen, for I have learned the hard way, that my body don't lie.
Having had very serious experiences, not knowing a cause, yet later confirmed.

Everything in my life is now as I can do it my body will indicate that by being without symptoms
then I will start doing some more, and again this awareness sit on my shoulder for I don't know
where my limits are, I do not know the borderline before I have stepped over it yet again; NOW
With swellings that can come anywhere, even inside my mouth, creating tooth pains I would not
wish on anyone spots and and sores I cry in pain not able to get painkillers I react; to them too.

Perfume, make up, beautiful soaps, hair colors and perms; has all now gone; from my life, as a
woman that was very, very difficult to accept; and live with, as it completely changed; who I was
and how I presented myself to this world. Yet when it's almost killing you; you know you have to
let it go. Even, with a possible; death hanging over my head, for not being able to breathe, and
with so many other symptoms, coming on none stop, I cried and cried, for there was so many
goodbyes, I constantly had to say, when my life fell; like the card'house around me, as so many
foods too left my life. This do change our lives around completely, when our sensitivity, become
life threatening our days are being monitored to the slightest detail and if new attacks shows its
head then that has to be incorporated too. This is no easy task for anyone living with or around.

I, could not believe; how many things; started this ravine, " sat me off like a bomb" health'wise.
I too know there is many, many other forms for severe sickness in this our world terrible things
and disabilities, which so totally too; alter lives. Yes I do know your pain, I do understand; it all.
Lives torn apart in war zone areas in this world famine and earth-disasters too happens all the
time. I know we can not compare, yet we can care and we can show compassion and give help.
I know their pain I live that pain too, and that is what help me, as I see others difficulties to live
with and within and what's truly going on; everywhere on this Earth of ours from these traumas.
Now it is easy to understand a disability that can be seen on our bodies. Ours can't be seen
its still not accepted and no'one really understand it either HOW dangerous IT IS.
Yet It is still my/our so beautiful life

As I know a lot more and I'm able to also keep myself safer in my daily life.